Sunday, January 29, 2012

About my future hubby

Thank God for my Greg.

Greg is amazing. Truly. He's the only person I know that reminds me so much of Jesus himself. He is a simple man with a simple faith, but he is the most loving, forgiving, and humble man I know. He is a beautiful example to me. He is slow to anger and rich in mercy. I'm STILL learning that from Greg and from Christ.


We're different in a hundred ways, but our hearts' purpose is the same. Our differences truly make us complement each other. I've always been a straight A student and a valedictorian of my high school class. Now I'm in pharmacy school and still getting A's. Even outside of school I read Christian/Catholic books and study my faith. I'm always studying/learning something--always gaining knowledge and moving forward. On the other hand, since I've known Greg, he hasn't even touched a single book. He finished high school with mediocre grades and never went further. He's certainly not a student--he loves to work with his hands. So I guess, Greg is a physical hard-worker, and I'm a mental hard-worker. I take my faith seriously and I keep striving to make God my #1 priority. I love God and I'm fully aware of God's love for me. Greg is also a cradle Catholic, but I'm not sure how much he understands faith, or whether he realizes or not that God loves him, and that He wants him to love Him intimately and above all. He certainly has faith, but I would say a simple one. He believes in God but I don't think He's close to God. I don't know because I never really had such a deep conversation with him. I probably should. I don't know why it's so hard for me to talk to Greg about my faith and my love for God. I'm afraid he won't understand. I mean, if somebody had told me 5 or 6 years ago about intimately loving God and having a relationship with Him as with a real lover or best friend...I don't know how I would react to that or if I'd understand it. It's just hard to understand such matters without first experiencing them. Greg is also a big HELPER. He helps anyone and everyone with anything and everything, without expecting anything in return. I'm not even exaggerating. He will go out of his way to do small and big favors for his parents, sister, friends--no matter how that person treats him etc. I'm a little more reserved in helping people. I shouldn't be. But I guess my philosophy always was that everyone should just take care of themselves. There's been times when Greg's excessive willingness to help people drove me nuts! Especially when I knew those people caused their own trouble themselves, and they're not appreciative/thankful anyways. Greg cannot sit still or cannot be bored, he FINDS himself things/jobs to do or errands to run. Me, if I have a moment to myself--I use it to pray, relax, journal, read. And of course, Greg being a man, he is more stable emotionally, and as I said before, slow to anger. Me? I get disappointed and angry quickly. A lot of times I let my emotions rule my behavior, and then I mistreat Greg and other people. In other words, I don't wait for the emotions to settle down before opening my mouth. But Thank the Lord Greg is patient and forgiving. I need patience and forgiveness  badly!

We're also in many ways similar.  Neither of us is very outgoing--we prefer to spend time together at home or on a quiet date, rather than go out in big groups or go to parties or bars (like so many of our friends do). We're both very calm and not very outspoken. Although, for me, that's changed a bit lately. I've overcome my shyness and now I love to talk to people--even strangers! I still don't like to get attention, but I'm really interested in people and love interacting with them. Especially at work, in the pharmacy, I love to answer their questions and ask how they're doing. But I'm getting sidetracked here. We both have conservative, pro-life, pro-family values. We both cannot wait to get married, buy a house, and move in together. We both love animals--so no doubt our house will include pets! We both agree on being completely open to any children that God wants to bless us with: the more the merrier! We want to raise our kids in the One, True, Holy, Catholic, Apostolic Church, so one day they become soldiers of Christ and help others find the Truth and the Source of Life. We both love country living! Our mutual dream is to one day buy a house on a couple of acres of land in the countryside. And buy a horse. And maybe some ducks :-) But I don't know if that one is in God's will or not. For now we're stuck in the city/suburbs of Chicago because Greg's job is here. And of course not only do we share a common faith, but we also share a common ethnic background, which has  great cuisine and is rich in traditions.Oh, and we both have a thing for driving each other crazy :-)

...and I guess despite our differences and even our similarities...there's the one most important thing  we HAVE IN COMMON: We love each other very much and want to share our lives with each other for better or for worse, til death do us part




Of course, he's not perfect and I'm not perfect. Just because I always sound so thrilled about our relationship and always have a smile on my face when talking about us, that doesn't mean our road isn't rocky. Just like anyone, he has some personality flaws and I have some personality flaws. And many times, those personality flaws of his and mine bumped into each other and made quite a mess.
I guess the saying is: NO, We are NOT perfect, but we are perfect for each other. Arguments/mistakes/flaws will never separate us but make us grow stronger together and appreciate each other more and more as we grow old.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Roe vs. Wade - A Death Sentence for our Nation

January 22 marks the 39th anniversary of the "Roe vs. Wade" court decision that since then, is responsible for killing over 50 million innocent babies that could've been our nurses, doctors, scientists, artists and contributed other talents to the world. This is more lives than taken by the holocaust. WHERE IS THE LOVE? Let us pray to stop abortion.
And here is the BEST MARCH FOR LIFE 2012 VIDEO EVER! A Must see..

Friday, January 6, 2012

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own"

Let me tell you: working only part-time, being a pharmacy student (pharmacy school tuition is super expensive!), being broke, having student loans, planning a traditional (= costly) Polish wedding; all while being relatively financially independent can be quite stressful and worrisome.Yes, I still live under my parents' roof and they provide me with food and other necessities, but I'm completely on my own as far as paying for school, my car, and our wedding expenses. We haven't really spent any real money on the wedding yet, except a small deposit at the banquet hall we booked. I haven't faced the burden of my student loans yet except the relatively small out-of-pocket co-payments I have to make each quarter. ALL OF THIS, plus the BAD ECONOMY and the fact that the job market for pharmacists in Chicago is very, very, very, saturated really tends to worry me....A LOT. There are constantly the "what if" questions, if you know what I mean. "What if I can't find a job after I graduate and I'm stuck with thousands of dollars of loans, unable to pay them off?" "What if people don't show up to our wedding and it ends up costing us much more than we expected?" "Will Greg and I be able to afford to move in together after our wedding?"  Even stupid questions like "What obstacles is mine and Greg's future marriage facing? Will we be able to overcome them?" Those are the "macro" worries. Now, there are also the daily anxieties, or the "micro" worries about exams, grades, work, money, family, and minor/meaningless arguments with my fiance.

What's the conclusion???

I..or shall I say WE, people, WORRY A LOT. 

I'm sure I'm not the only person with a thousand things on my mind, constantly thinking into the future, instead of enjoying the present. Why do we do that? The future is not in our control! I have to constantly remind myself that my future and my whole entire life, including my future marriage and future career--that NONE of it is in MY HANDS--but rather, it is all in GOD'S HANDS. It doesn't matter what I do and even how hard I work. Yes, God rewards those that work hard and do their part. God expects us to do our part and whatever we cannot accomplish by ourselves, He will help. Certainly, working hard brings success, because it is pleasing to God.  But that's not the point. No matter what I do, the future isn't mine to control or determine! Even if I work super hard and graduate pharm school with a 4.0 GPA--that does not mean that I will find a job. Yes, it will make me a much more competitive job candidate, but on its own, it will not find me a position! (Basically: "In vain do the builders labor if the Lord does not build the house") No matter how much I worry today, what difference does it make tomorrow? Everything happens according to His Will. So if God wants to bless me with a job, then a pharmacist I shall be! I have learned this lesson over and over again in my life, but I keep messing up and making the same mistake of being anxious about my future over and over again. Of course, God understands us. But it shows that we do not trust Him with our life. We need to understand that God does not give us challenges or tasks for which we do not have the ability, knowledge, or strength to accomplish. As long as we are doing the best we can with what we have, then He will do the rest! He already knows our troubles and anxieties! And He would feel much better if we would just place our trust in Him and stop worrying what tomorrow will bring. If He provided for us today, He will provide for us tomorrow, and next year, and in 10 years--until He calls us home.


One of my favorite scriptures that I have to keep re-reading over and over, otherwise I forget...

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
 -Matthew 6

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

A little bit about my pharmacy school experience thus far....

 

 Midwestern University Chicago College of Pharmacy
White Coat Ceremony
September 2011


It is midnight and I've decided to call it a night as far as homework/studying goes. I am still behind in most of my classes because I barely touched any books over my very short 13-day winter break. Luckily, I don't have any exams this week, but starting next week, I will be having 2 exams every single week for the remainder of the quarter (until spring break in March)! So this week I'm going to catch up on going over my immunology, biochemistry, physiology, and pharmaceutics lectures, so that I could actually start fulfilling one of my new year's resolutions starting next week. This is my second quarter of my first year of pharmacy school. Last quarter was tough, but I would say that I expected worse. I was prepared for the workload and I was used to the workload, as my 2 years of pre-pharmacy courses were a challenge too. Well, I tackled my very first quarter of pharmacy school with straight A's! And it wasn't even that hard. Time management and willpower was all it took. Oh, and lots of prayers to keep me sane and on the right track, too! The material is not challenging just yet. They tell us "wait til you get to 2nd and 3rd year when you have Therapeutics." But I'm not worried about it at all!

 I hear people complaining of our science courses being hard and the exams questions being unfair. I hear about them staying up nights and weekends to study. I guess I understand where their frustration is coming from. We're taking 3 hard core science courses all at once now. We have 2 exams EACH and EVERY week, all at 7AM. Each of these exams requires you to look through more or less 100 pages of lecture notes (which are already a condensed form of the textbook). Not only read 100+ pages of lecture notes before each exam, but memorize fine details; such as different molecules, enzymes, hormones, diseases, anatomical structures and their functions.

Crazy, huh?

Yet I don't think I have gotten seriously frustrated over this stuff at all yet. I've been stressed and a little worried with the little amount of time we have for preparation, but never frustrated with the material. It's not because I'm some genius. I'm just motivated, well-organized, and most importantly, I'M LIKING WHAT I'M DOING. I really, truly enjoy school and learning about medicine and pharmacy, so I find a way to organize the material in such as way that makes it easy for me to study it. I keep up with the material by regularly taking my own hand-written notes from the dense lecture notes that we were required to buy. This way, I condense down the material to fewer pages of most important concepts and details. Also,  I learn through writing. Writing is an actual learning style. And it works for me! I can't just motionlessly sit in one spot and review material over and over again--I have to DO something with the material. So I write it down in my own words. When the exam comes, all I have to do is review my own notes once or twice, and I'm good to go. I don't have to freak out the day before the exam that I have to memorize 100+ pages worth of material. But, anyways, enough about that. I should probably head to bed, as I need to get up early tomorrow to drive to my rotation site. Every Wednesday, I shadow a pharmacist at Dominick's to get hands-on experience about what we are learning in the classroom :-)

I already have close to 2 years of pharmacy experience, as I've been volunteering since April 2010 at the pharmacy of this one Chicago clinic that provides free health-care and prescriptions to the poor/uninsured. I've also been working as a pharmacy technician for a little over a year at a huge chain merchandise/grocery store. Throughout those last 2 years, I've been testing my calling to become a pharmacist....And??? ...Well,  I found out that I really enjoy interacting with the patients that come to the pharmacy, answering their questions and concerns, and helping them re-solve certain issues...But more about my calling (vocation) in the future. That topic deserves a whole another post.

For now, goodnight!


UPDATES: 



Some more recent posts on pharmacy school: 

·      9/25/13 Here is a link to my follow-up post on my pharmacy school experience thus far as a 3rd year (P3) 
·      10/2/13 Medicinal Chemistry (aka Drug Structure) - the hardest course in pharmacy school
·      3/19/14 My post as I'm nearing the END of my pharmacy school experience: The End is Near: CPR/Immunization Training, Rotations, and other Pharmacy School Updates 
·      4/25/14 Diary of a PharmD Student

Posts about Pharmacy School Rotations  (4th year)

  • You can also click on the Pharmacy School label and read all the various posts which are sprinkled throughout with my pharmacy school experience!


Midwestern University Chicago College of Pharmacy IV Sterile Lab
Downers Grove, IL

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Agnes