By the way....here is a fresh-off-the-grill "bathroom selfie" of me today at the hospital.
I just needed to sit down here and reflect to help me to get motivated to get work done here at home. Not sure if my body is just protesting to having to wake up at 4:30am now or what....but when I come home from my rotation, all I wanna do is lounge around and eat and not do any work. But now that got myself thinking and reflecting upon this rotation and about how blessed I am to be there and to have those opportunities and experiences, I now feel much more determined to make this rotation an awesome experience. I know that we get NOTHING but learning and invaluable experiences from these rotations. And that is all we get. We don't get paid. Zero. Nada. We actually still have to pay our ridiculously high pharmacy school tuition for the school to provide these rotations for us. So since there is no compensation, since I get nothing out of this, then I conclude that the only purpose I am there for, the only thing I really CAN get out of it, that only thing that can truly benefit me and my future self as well, is the LEARNING I will acquire and the patients I will help in the future as a result of that learning. Now, that's what gets me motivated. That's what makes me want to say with confidence that I will work very hard, that I will put forth my best efforts over the next couple of weeks, I will simply do my best no matter how challenging it gets and how hard I am pushed. Because these are once in a life time opportunities....because this is a gift from GOD (just like everything else in my life).
I will never be on rotation at Loyola again. This is the one and only time to shine. And therefore I will be grateful. I will begin and end each day with gratitude. I will thank God for each and every day that He blessed me with...for each and every opportunity to learn and to affect the lives of people. I will not just try to "do enough to get by" or be an "average joe," or just try to "get through these rotations to graduate and get my PharmD." I will not be grumpy over having to wake up so early in the morning every day, or over the amount of projects we have. I will not complain about anything or anybody. I will BE fully present in every moment, with a grateful attitude and a mind open to knowledge and wisdom flowing in. I know that only with such an attitude can I really get the best out of these once-in-a-lifetime rotations. I may not even get into a residency. I may never have the opportunity to work at a hospital alongside these amazing doctors again. I don't know what God's plan for the future is. All I know is that His Plan and His Will for this time right now is for me to be present on these rotations, to learn, to be inspired, to inspire others with my own attitude, faith, knowledge, and thankfulness. This present moment is all I have..and I will use it the best way I can.
So Help me God. Amen.
My attempt at getting organized. My pharmacy rotations journal, my academic planner, and a rainbow of new writing utensils (I'm special. I get excited about purchasing new writing utensils). The key for me is to be organized. If I'm not organized, I'm not motivated to do work. I'm kind of a perfectionist when it comes to being organized. I love love love planners, journals, to do lists...as well as writing with colorful pens. Obviously. Haha
I know I will have a great time and it will be a great 6 weeks full of fun and learning. Our preceptor is hard...so I heard through the grapevine. She has high expectations and doesn't repeat herself... If she says something once, we are expected to know it. But we were also told that we are lucky we have her for our first rotation because she will make sure we are all set for the following rotations...after hers...all the rest will be a piece of cake. So I heard. So I'm excited. I'm going to try to work really, really hard over the next 6 weeks to learn as much as I can. Because what we have memorized in school ....what we crammed for those endless exams basically went into our short term memories, only to be mostly forgotten right after the exam. That is why rotations are so important.
--------------------And here is a little rant about Loyola Hospital itself. It is a Catholic Hospital founded by the Jesuits and named after St. Ignatius at Loyola. What is awesome is that all thorughout the hospital, there are crucifixes (in every patient's room and in the hallways and nurses' stations) and pictures and quotes of Saints on the walls. I get so excited to be surrounded by Catholicism. It makes me feel so proud to be Catholic when I see Catholic foundation and history of such an excellent Chicagoland hospital.
What I find the most awesome is their MOTTO:
ad majorem Dei gloriam
which is worn on the white coats of all the doctors, pharmacist, medical students...and it just appears everywhere. It is a Latin motto of the Jesuits and translates to "For the greater glory of God."
(The origin of the phrase is attributed to the founder of the Jesuits, Saint Ignatius of Loyola, who intended it to serve as a cornerstone sentiment of the society's religious philosophy. The full phrase attributed to St. Ignatius is Ad maiorem Dei gloriam inque hominum salutem or "for the greater glory of God and salvation of man." It is a summary of the idea that any work that is not evil, even one that would normally be considered inconsequential to the spiritual life, can be spiritually meritorious if it is performed in order to give glory to God).
Lord, can I please, please work for this hospital in the future? This is dream job material right there.
Yours Truly, Agnes