Words cannot even begin to describe the journey God put me on as a pharmacy resident and a mother. Brand new to both. Knew nothing about either. Yet, He gave me the right tools, the right attitude, and enough perseverance to come out on the other side victorious and proud. Yes. The end was certainly victorious, though the beginning was shocking and the middle was just...HARD AS HELL and filled with lots of struggles and tears.
Hardest year of my life.
70+ hour weeks, working 12 days on, 2 days off all year long. Countless projects, presentations, deadlines. Intertwined with all that was my research. Research, research, research. I got to work before the crack of dawn and left work waaay past sunset because I was constantly working on my research project...which was the hardest and most time consuming project of all my co-residents and I would say way more involved than those of many PGY-1 residents whose presentations I later saw at the Great Lakes Pharmacy Residency Conference.
Add first time motherhood to that.
Birth not exactly as planned. Only 6 weeks of maternity leave, then having to come back to the 12days on, 2 days off craziness.
Struggling with very low breastmilk supply.
Crying for the first 13 post-partum days.
But receiving so much help and support from my husband and being so amazed at his involvement, love (the real DO type of love, not TALK kind of love), sacrifice.
I'm now officially done. I don't know how I feel about it yet. It really hasn't hit me yet that it's over.
I just waived goodbye to my in-laws, as they got in my husband's car so he can drop them off at the airport. Thank God for my mother in law these past 6 months, we could not have done it without her help.
More on the crazy journey to come.
Now off to my first official shift as a clinical pharmacist (yes, I got a wonderful job post-residency and it was all worth it!!!)
But more on everything later.
I missed my blog. Will try to write more and keep up with my life story now that I will have more time. Thanks for sticking around while I was gone livin' the dream....or rather making the dream come true by working my arse off!
Yours in Christ,